Me Time

See what I'm doing right now? This here? This blog? This is my me time. My husband is somewhere else in the house and Stephanie is fast asleep. Aaaah. I savor this.

I was supposed to go out tonight with some friends. But Stephanie was having one of her terrible two moments and I wanted to make sure she was okay when she went to sleep. And can I also point out that I didn't receive any argument over it. I'm sure he was relieved I was staying home tonight. Last time I went out with friends, she was really overtired and extra cranky and so she fought and cried and didn't go to bed until 11. And so here I am. And he has breathed a sigh of relief.

Moms need their nights out. It is important for their sanity and for their marriage. And I know that you are all screaming that I should have went, that she would have been fine, that maybe I was spoiling her (and possibly him) by staying home. I know. But I also would have felt guilty if that wasn't the case. I'm that mom. Not only do I need to make sure she is okay, but I have to make sure he is okay, too.

Work this week has been stressful. An ad for our company was pulled because an item of clothing worn by the star was deemed controversial. It made national headlines. People complained because we ran the ad and 3000 more complained when we took it down. Sometimes you just can't win.

A night to be yourself with friends. Good food, good friends, good conversation. This is what tonight was supposed to be about. Forget about the stresses at work. Forget about the stress of raising a family.

Maybe next time.

Can the 3rd time be the charm?

I've quit before and came back. Stronger, I thought. Until I faded away again.

But now I am back. Again. Stronger? I guess we'll see. But I'm not giving up so soon.